The Best Teacher

Its so difficult to believe that someone can actually leave us forever. We all thought our teachers would always be there. We thought they'd be immortal. But then this happens and we realize they aren't. Miss Fikree Senior was honestly the best teacher in the entire world. She was a legend. There is no one like her and there never will be. She was the most dedicated, sweet, understanding teacher I've known. She taught us everything and often told us about her childhood, nephews and anything that was on her mind. I cannot do her justice with my description. We'll never forget how she dressed with her hair in a bun and her gold loop earrings and bright clothes. How she taught and our economics and literature classes. Her sense of humor. Her impartiality and her sense of justice.

Miss Fikree Senior wherever you are I hope you are in a better place and I hope you are happy. We really do love you. And this has been hard on all of us.

I miss you!

Global Warming

Its November and the weather is that of June. Its hot as ever and I still need the air conditioner or I'll melt. I even had a dream two nights ago about global warming and that we have ten days left before the apocalypse. I do not want to die.

The Best Day

School was really good today. I finished writing my journal on time and I even got the Focus on general book from Ramsha before class. Psychology test went well considering how I didn't even read the notes and had to copy off Umme. Love her! So we went to Amber's place for the "play it product" commercial. Our product is Levis jeans and we had to decide on what to make. Btw we had Chinese for lunch and it was really yummy. We even talked to SJ and had to much fun talking and laughing. Its a day I never want to forget. The best day ever.

Butterflies everywhere!

This is a phase in my life when im so in love with several people that I cannot think about anything else! Im so glad i get to see them everyday :D Its what keeps me going to school =p

Today's the day or night

It will be fine.

Disney Magic

I watched Tarzan yesterday and I realized what a good movie it is. When I was a child I used to take these Disney movies for granted like Beauty and the Beast and the Little Mermaid. Now do I realise how great those movies are. Have you seen the new Disney movies? Hannah Montana and Dadnapped those other hundreds of movies. They're all so meaningless and it really takes the fun out of watching them. I'm so glad that I grew up in the 90s and early 2000s because that time Disney movies were still Disney movies. Meaning they were animated and full of meaning and amazing songs that made us cry.
None of these new movies have had that effect on me. And I dont think they will ever again. The magic that was in the Disney movies are all gone now. Some things should never change.

Aqua

I put this really cool nail polish which is aqua blue. Totally radical! Reminds me of mermaids and mermaids remind me of fairytales. Now thats where it gets all sad. Fairytales remind me of reality and prince charming does not exist in real life. This piece of tragedy in life could ruin the world! I swear one day I will die of heart break and sorrow when it actually sinks into my head that fairytales do not exist.

Oh no!

Today I found out that there are 15 year olds studying at Lyceum and i felt so old. You know me. I hate aging. Which is why I was depressed the whole damn day. To top it off I'm stuck with the same math sir i had last time. OMG I'm hating everything all over again!!

Dreams

I keep having dreams about the weirdest things. I dream so much its not even funny. Recently I found out in my psychology class that we dream in our deepest state of sleep. That would mean I'm a very deep sleeper. I knew it had something to do psychologically with my mind. Like I was mentally disturbed or something more exciting. But turns out its just normal to dream. People who do not dream die. Its a fact. People may say they dont have dreams but they do. They just forget all about it. But me. I always remember them. Thats why I feel I'm dreaming all night long.

This sucketh

I really do hate school. Oh yes I do! What is with the A2s? They were A1s just last year and now they've forgotten all about it and think they're the rulers of Lyceum! 

A levels

I think am ready for A levels. im a big girl now :)

Shocker: Jacksonator was Right

Results are out. No one was too sure of their results. Some were happy when they got theirs, some were shocked, some were downright depressed and some were thrilled. I didnt fit in any of these. What I felt was a mixture of all those emotions. You see, I was happy about my A in literature since I didnt expect it, I was shocked with my A* in history, I was upset with my Bs in economics and computers of all subjects, and I was thrilled with my A in math. That was one A I felt I truly earned.
So I had 4 As and 3 Bs. Not that bad. But that good either. Together with last year's results I have 6 As and 4 Bs.
Just like jackson said. I wish he'd said I will get 8 As. But Im cool with it.

Oh the joy!

I love life. Sleeping wastes it. Honestly when you think about it, life is something no one can really understand. Is it to enjoy? or to have succuess? or to help others? The thing is, there is so much to do in life that no one can ever say "I've done it all. Now I can die". If they did then they would die in vain. Because the truth is no one can do it all!

Step one: The Interview

To day was the first interview of my life. It was cool. I wasnt nervous at all or maybe I was so nervous that I didnt even notice I how nervous I really was! So I go to the school, sign my name at the gate, you know, got done with the preliminaries and moved into "The Building". Mom and I sat at the corridor or reception area (no idea whats what around there) for about thirty seconds or ten and the guy called us in.

Deep breath. This was it. I walked inside a room (like a small office, slightly larger than a cubicle) and there were three empty chairs and three occupied chairs, three ladies, one desk. Suddenly the world seemed so small. Anyway I went right ahead and sat down with mommy beside me. How rude of me really, I realise that now. The lady in the middle introduced them all to me while I nodded.

Results are near

Im beyond freaked about the results!! I hope its good man. 

Underwater

The older I grow the more I seem to hate myself, my life, the whole world for that matter. Everything that I thought was perfect has crumbled before me and now I live in a shattered world full of disappointments and ugly truths. How everyone's life can be so flawed yet we all live on is truly amazing. Right now, with every news I hear, I feel that Im drowning or more accurately speaking, Im living underwater. Its too unreal and the blows are slow and take long to set in.

Guitars, Drums and what not!

One of my greatest desires is to be able to play all kinds of instruments. I started wlearing the guitar last year but problem is I got bored. Something that happens to me a lot! So then i moved on to drums, i became obsessed by them but my mom wouldnt buy me drums of course for various reasons, mainly because I never mentioned it to her in the first place. Anyway now I want to play the piano and the violin. I heard the violin is really tough to play. Heck, I wish we were just born talented. That way I would'nt feel so frustrated and handicapped!

Hearts!

I've been watching Boys Over Flower this past week and I became obsessed with it :p I mean the guys are just so cute and hot! I love this drama the most at the moment. It makes you want to fall in love with someone like them in real life. *sigh* Too bad real life isnt a fairy tale love story. Thats why we need shows like Boys over Flower to keep up our spirits :) and surely one day we will fall in love and have a happy ending.

Hey

Time to slow things down a bit.

Its time

What I'm freaked out about most is the add math paper. I swear I think I'll get a D! I'm so scared! And I really want an A in math. Oh my goodness. I want to get over with it already!

Farewell

The party was honestly very cool. I didnt think class 10 had it in them. Of course it doesnt compare to the one we gave class 11 last year ;) haha!

Valentine's Day

This year's Valentines Day was so boring. Not that its not boring every year. haha! But maybe its because I'm starting to feel old. I'm 17!

Ilmathon

It was a very long walk. But it was also the funnest walk of the year! :D

110 percent minus 100

There was a tournament today with Paf chapter City school. And yeah SJC lost. Not that we were bad or anything, but we just did not pick up what the other team was doing like they did with us. They learned our tactics and used it against us while we just continued doing nothing new. I really don’t blame our team. Considering the fact that our coach (well, our sports teacher, since we have no coach, but coach sounds cool) is a sixty year old lady teaching us the new rules of netball just 3 days before the tournament, while we played ith the old rules since seventh grade. The only fault that was ours was that we did not practice enough. No one bothered staying after school to practice or anything. The only practice anyone did was the Goal person (shoot) who practiced shooting for 10 minutes. So considering all that, we were pretty awesome. In the first half of the game, our team made 3 consecutive goals while they had none, ending with 4-1 as the score. In the second half, they picked up our tactics, were more aggressive and determined. They made goal after goal until it reached 5-8. Losing was bad. It was embarrassing. But the other team from our school (metric section) won their game with another school. So thats better. At least our school wont be laughed at.



The problem with all of us is the lack of determination and our laziness. I know because it made us losers. All we needed was to give a hundred and ten percent. Not ten.

Chinese New Year

YAY! Its New Year! A day that not only the chinese nation but the whole world celebrates! Its the beginning of a brand new year, full of hope, and good luck =) I had to go to school today because well this day isnt recognised by Pakistan yet, I suppose. Anyway so after school I went to grandma’s and had lunch there. We took so many pictures. I ate so much cake today i actually hated cake for a while. But I love it again. That only lasted like a few hours. Im sorry cake Im going to watch Ugly Betty now.

Freaky Friday! (not)

So Chinese New Year is just around the corner. MONDAY! Everyone’s been busy with their preparations. Yesterday there was a party at the Chinese Consulate but I didnt go because i had plans to study math with my friend. It was fun. I went after add math tuitions and we actually did study some. Usually study plans never work because we end up going online or making prank calls. We even did that yesterday while we were on a break =p but thats okay. A break is a break. So I was doing math while mom and dad were at the party. I thought Jackson went too but turned out he was at home. He texted messaged me saying “I’m damn bored get me food” Poor thing. All alone playing games, awww what a cuddle bunny! =p




The day had ended well. It was very crappy at school. I had the worst math test ever. It killed my mood. I felt so useless and stupid! Like the world was against me. But lets not talk about that.

A- YAY

I was so freaked out when I saw everyones Socio results. Most of my friends got Bs and i was sure i would get a B too. Which is why I didn’t check it in school. Well I didn’t know my candidate number that’s the real reason but even if I did I would have waited to come home and see it. It was pretty scary man. One girl started crying because she got a B. And only 4 girls got As. those who took socio. Anyway, as soon as I came home, I checked it, and I couldnt believe it. I GOT AN A! I was so happy! I messaged all my friends about it =p So I learned one thing and its that we shouldn’t expect too much if we don’t work hard in the first place. Seeing all the girls getting so upset over their results was sad. In my case, I didn’t work hard, but it was just socio and that’s easy

Report Day

Today was my report day. Its funny how when we grow up these things don’t matter anymore. I’m the same kod who used to be terrified of report days. I used to get so nervous that i wanted to die rather than take my report. But now its not even a big deal anymore and I didn’t even realize it. There are so many things in life that we should care about and dwell in rather than grades. I’m talking about students, those who never give themselves a break and just go on studying and yet they lack all the important qualities. I mean its just a report and its just the result of how you’ve done in school. People are more attracted to good personality and characters more than anything else. Although I never take studies seriously, I manage to get okay grades. So I’m cool with it. Which is how life should be. relaxed and fun. There’s a lot more in life to worry about than report cards. and report cards arent even worth the worry. save it for something worthwhile.